maandag 7 september 2020

Waiting for autumn

Langzaam maar zeker komt de zomer op zijn einde. Het einde van de zomer is mijn favoriete tijd van de zomer. Het veranderen van het zonlicht, de natuur, de geur, de kleuren om ons heen. Ik hou ervan hoe de zon 's ochtends schijnt en hoe het' s avonds een gezellige sfeer creƫert. We kijken uit naar herfstwandelingen, buiten zijn en kort voordat we het weten wordt onze lieve August een jaar oud. Het is een uitdagende, maar ook erg leuke tijd geweest en we kunnen niet wachten om te zien hoe hij zal groeien, zijn eerste echte stappen zal zetten. De laatste tijd heb ik een paar mooie kledingstukken en een paar mooie kleine schoentjes voor hem gekocht. Ik vond ze tweedehands, ik ben altijd opzoek naar fijne vondsten. Ik hoop binnenkort wat meer te kunnen tonen van al dat fijne dat ik vond.



zaterdag 8 augustus 2020

Dear August






 

maandag 3 februari 2020

Dear August

Our dear baby son August was born on 30th October. It was a beautiful autumn day. First signs of him coming started the day before, but in that moment I was also sick and had a check up at the hospital. Back at home I felt it could not last longer and he will come soon. I tried to take my rest in the evening and put my thoughts on something else. I was very tired and taking the stairs up was barely impossible. I slept a little, but I woke from a feeling on my belly. I looked at the clock and it was 3 am in the morning. I kept staring at the time and suddenly i felt it again, a contraction and i realised it was starting for real, our little boy was ready to come. I kept laying in bed quietly staring at the clock to see how much time there was between the previous and next contraction and after 20 minutes an other contraction came. my husband was still sleeping next to me I thought it was better not to wake him too soon and I also did not want to go to the hospital too fast. I wanted to handle the contractions myself and stay calm and concentrate on my belly and August inside. Around 6 am in the morning I felt it became more intenser and I woke my husband. We stayed calm and started to plan our ride to the hospital. As I was laying in  bed my water suddenly broke after a very heavy contraction. I called my parents and they came right away. My father drove us to the hospital and my mother stayed with our daughter Elise. When we arrived at the hospital they saw I was already good in labor and it was possible it could go quick. But due circumstances it took a longer time then we expected. Everything was going good but suddenly his little heart was not beating so good and i was starting to loose a lot of blood. Medical staff was standing by our side constantly and urgent c-section was starting to come closer. But wonder above wonder the chance came to start pushing. I was exhausted, somewhere else and missing our daughter Elise very hard, but in this rollercoaster of emotions and pain i could find strenght to give birth to dear August. When he was there and we saw him and heard his soft little cry the world stood still for us while outside the sun was shining and autumn was on it's pretties.


zaterdag 1 februari 2020

Pregnancy





vrijdag 27 september 2019

autumn knitting